long time no touch d blog d...

today granny sick... big 1...

evey1 of NG family come here...

tot to c her last face deh

she starting to talking nonsense n crying unstoppably oso...

sad...

but why am i sad?

letz c...

i hav so less memory wid my granny since my secondary life...

ya less..

less till can say zero

so why sad? itz like no relation wid her ady

yeap

i m sad cuz she is my granny tat i seldom even din say ah ma when i c her

why would i so tui fei?

question mark

da world suddenly become so dark so scary...

i feel a light in front me but i juz hardly reach it or catch it..

da light is sumtimes near to me n sumtimes far to me..

dun fool me GOD plz

i m juz an cant ordinary liao d ordinary ppl

how could u treat me like this?

or shud i say

why i treat myself like this?

most memorable touch wid granny is

she hold me to her back when my mom wanna cane me at my 6 or 7 yr old age

sigh = =

1 more

she giv me about rm50 each time my pri result out...

got la secondary

pmr n spm got giv me money spend deh

how could i?

how could i juz hav such memories...

i m sad

i m sad

say is no use

nth help

stay under a same roof

but juz like meeting the strangers evryday

i dun like this feel

family

wat it giv me?

Father And Mother I Love You?

but i neither feel my love to u nor ur love to me...

how?

i gonna b strong afta today..

 

even work oso worse than ppl

3 days set off myself

why?

i hate myself there...

i dun1 to blacken d purity of me anymore..

i juz wan a peace world

but y is it so diff?

those ppl not bad guy... but juz dirty words come out easily from their mouth..

i feel uncomfortable of it...

i dun1 myself oso b like tat

n i cant hold myself too quiet or not to b in their gangs...

is like a big society tat ppl need to store their real face behind others

i wan b myself.. n not getting a mask on my face

but its totaly juz a dream

tat nvr get true...

......

 

站得太久
分岔口怎麼去走
我夠膽孤注一擲
完全沒有顫抖
愛你那段時侯
簡簡單單經已足夠
到任何東西應有盡有
誰還留力舐傷口

人生太短
出手要更大
旁觀者不需理解
贏得風光
豪得精彩
自己偏偏感覺失敗
自尊心都可以出賣
忘記我也是無壞
連幸福都輸掉醉在長街
依然是我最大

連夢想灑一地再任人踩
依然笑得爽快

casino wind cloud by lei hak kan

 

duno y i like it...